blast.

... and there goes my ambition to blog more regularly this year.  oh, well.
life here never seems to slow down.  I don't have more than one weekend-day this whole month to do homework.  I was able to visit my favorite cousin at the beginning of February, which was such a wonderful relaxing time - we hadn't been able to catch up in awhile, and we both welcomed the time to sit down and mess around and enjoy ourselves.  then this last weekend, Andy came to visit for almost 4 full days - it was a great blessing to be able to have time with him in this area of my world, up here in Portland, visiting my coffee shops, Powell's Books, wandering my campus and eating at my Thai place.   basically the best Valentine's weekend ever.  on Saturday, I get to go snow-shoeing, which will be an amazing and crazy-filled day.  and in just one week, I get to fly home to see my Momma for a few days.
which leaves me with an overwhelming amount of homework to cram in at all of the other odd moments of my week.  and I've been left with a surprising moment of clarity.
I'm taking a class on he Life & Thought of CS Lewis.  I needed 2 more Lit. units, and this class sounded fun.  I mean, I love Lewis, I love the prof, I love the books...
anyway.  this class has freaking massive loads of homework.  for some reason...  well, this week, we had to write our own Screwtape letter, about ourselves.  you know - when the more experienced tempter is writing to his nephew, offering advice about how to best distract and convert Christians back to their own dark Lowerarchy.
so I wrote mine.  about time management.  and about converting my pride back to glory for the Father.  my two biggest struggles in my daily life...  you know.  basically spilled my guts into an essay that will be read before my entire class tomorrow.
but then I realized.
I was already falling into the second thing I was struggling with.
pride.  not being able to point the glory back to God.
He's the one with all the good stuff.  it's wonderful.  He blesses me in ways I would have never asked for.  I can't do anything but step back and marvel at His goodness.